A real thing that explains a lot about my life, especially in relationship to my studio art and writing practices. This, in combination with my desire to get everything done right away right now finish quickly makes it very difficult for me to produce the work I want to make. My studio has been very quiet lately, and I put a lot of pressure on myself to change that, and then it becomes overwhelming. A vicious cycle I’m sure many people experience.
I’ve been going to therapy/ taking medication to help with with this- my anxiety/ depression.
I have a lot of large scale/ time consuming works in the process that I’m very excited about, but I’ll definitely need to take my time with them. And that’s okay. I need to stop obsessing over my portfolio- I’m not in school anymore! I’m making art on my own terms, 100%- it can absolutely be what I want/ need it to be and nothing else. It’s good to remember that art doesn’t happen magically or with the snap of a finger. Much of the pressure we put on ourselves is just that; we are often our own worst enemies and our harshest critics.
Time to get back to loving myself and taking it easy and making.